One of the most sure fire ways to find your why in anything is to be honest and transparent with yourself, Once you achieve this nothing is ever blocked from you, because you are not trying to convince yourself of anything you are merely honest with yourself.
You are open with yourself and able to see where you are coming from in your awareness from your I AM Presence your your small ego I.
Ask yourself where have I not been transparent with myself?
Where am I not willing to admit the truth to myself? Why? What am I afraid of?
What might happen if I choose to be radically honest within the relationship with myself?